Sunday, December 24, 2006

holla

( long post )
okay, im starting this post at 11.59 pm 23rd december...
or that's what my computer's clock says la..
technically the eve of the eve of xmas..
OH
it's now the eve of xmas already...
one whole year of waiting, just for that one day...
after a mad shopping rush, quite alot of choir practices..
THAT one day has finally arrived..
christmas before i joined g2 was quite different..

since i didnt attend midnight mass then..
everytime the clock struck 12midnight and welcomed christmas..
i'll just take that first half an hour or so and just think..
about the year, what's coming and everything..
i love solitude, it's been my friend since birth and that hasnt changed ever since...
company is good yes, but like stacy said, there are times when you just have to be alone..
recollect. reload. take a good hard look ahead. plan.
things usually dont go according to plan but hey, at least you have direction..

i guess that has how my life has been going way off...

" Life is a joke "

that was my life motto in VS...
no regrets, the fun i had there will last me till my last breath..
In 4 years, there was only 2 days in VS that i felt really sad..
graduation. results day.

"Once bitten twice shy"

Well, that really hasnt applied to me..
again i'm drifting in my JC days..
maybe the fun factor is gone, but im just taking whatever life throws at me..
hardly the attitude of someone successful...
that has to change, i damn well know that..
how? that's a question waiting to be answered huh?
i miss that 'top of the world' feeling

it's my 17th christmas...
let's hope it wont be like my 17th year of living..
i cant wait to be done with this year, it's a catastrophe...
a monotonous life in black-and-white
it's been lonely and cold..
an eye opener in more ways then one...
yet, it could have been alot better...
as i add the finishing touches to the foot of the current page..
im hoping it'll add some colour...

18 is a blank page waiting to be filled..
armed with that pen, i patiently await to write the next page of my life..
no way am i going to let it slip away..
i'll hold tight, and every second shall define that year
i'll do my best to script a fairytale ending...
or something close at least...

i know this post sounded like a new year resolution..
well, christmas is more significant to me than the NY
so im doing mine now..
im not gonna list them out here..
it's for my eyes only (:

no reply tags today..
to one and all,

.Have Yourself a Blessed and Joyful Christmas.

( give yourself a treat if you made it here without skipping anything )
( and leave a tag too )

ok... i am off...

Mumbled @ {12:00 AM}
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