Sunday, July 12, 2009
Bayshore Park is huge. Really, I've been to many condos before, but none of them gave me the spacious feeling as BP. The blocks were quite a distance apart, and the grounds were so big you could actually take a long stroll inside and be cheated that it's actually a garden by itself! I'm really impressed that the government actually sold such a large plot of land for one development! It's pretty unheard of in recent times I have to say.
Tennis was fun. The blunders made my day as much as the decent shots. I'm so used to playing badminton that I was trying to hit the tennis ball in the same way that I would have hit a shuttlecock. Needless to say, it didn't really work out at times. Haha, wonder how many balls did I murder today? I'm not guilty, those luminous balls whizzing to their deaths did bring some sardonic relief. Fear me oh tiny bright spheres! I must be losing my sanity huh?
The cool breeze, the company of friends, the ricocheting tennis balls, and the swinging of the racket into the face of the wind. Smiles, Laughter, jokes, jibes, the cricket sounds by Bryan. It was really perfect. It's love really.
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Saturday, July 04, 2009
I'm screwed up @ LittleBlackBoy Wordpress.
It's password protected, so ask me for it.
If I do not give you the password, don't worry, it simply means that the message intended is not for you yup! No offence.
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Friday, June 26, 2009
Well, everytime someone asks me out to a concert, I'll tell them gravely.
"The last concert that I actually attended was Michael Jackson Live in Singapore all the way back in 1993!"
Now, the man who did the moonwalk has to learn how to walk in another world.
Rest in Peace MJ, thanks for all the music.
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Well, it was nice being in the audience during a choral concert, after previously being part of the choir. Don't get me wrong, it was lovely to sing as a choir during Angels in Disguise last year, but there's also that unexplainable ease and excitement to be part of the audience. Well, it was a small concert put up by my lil' sister's school choir. Tiny kids, high voices, but my oh my, they sure do know how to have fun while going about the concert.
Yes, they made mistakes. Miscues, wrong pronunciation, using the wrong exit door, entering the stage later than they should have, but these kids just wave it off and actually genuinely have fun. It was really entertaining to see a 11 year old boy perfom a cover of Mraz' "I'm Yours". He got the timing wrong here and there, but he did it with such happiness that you eventually overlook all his shortcomings and enjoy the performance just as you would enjoy one done by Mraz himself. Ah, it was quite humbling. I enjoyed myself, really.
There's so much to singing beyond all the technicalities...
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
And so the Home Alone weekend has passed. My parents left for a short trip to Malaysia on Thursday, and the house has been quiet ever since. Haha, though I do miss a little bit of my mum's nagging and yelling at my sis. Heh. That said, the silence is acceptable also luh! All the studying done over this past few days revolved around compiling Business and Econs notes along with the fruitless attempts to master Vectors. Gosh, I can't believe barely 1.5 years ago it was somewhat understandable to me, but now it just looks like Hieroglyphs.
Noel and Winnie just left to celebrate Father's Day with Winnie's family. It was really nice having them over, simply just sitting together at the dining table as they did their own work while I was studying. Tidbits of chit chat, they bought me loads of snacks to bring over to Tuas tonight. Ahhhh, it's times like this that I really miss everyone else. Well, at least I'm seeing them occasionally, or well, Jon and Kat on Thurs, now Noel and Winnie... hmmmm, who's next!
Morning mass was an experience, couldn't help but text Mel on how badly my ears hurt. Not being mean or cruel, but the congregation was screaming so much, that they even lost track of which line the choir actually singing! Sheesh, well, they're enthusiastic about their faith and worship, nothing wrong with that, but I guess sometimes it just pays to listen first before blasting out and getting everything wrong.
Looks like this is going to be my routine for the next 5 months.
Go go go!
Garh, where did all these optimism stem from?
Should be the carefree and happy aura that Winnoel left behind.
I just came up with that because I'm too lazy to type out their full names. =X
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Well, as I pretty much expected, Sunday night was too much of an emotion to just keep inside me. Despite the fact that the farewell songs were for Val, and that he was supposed to be the red eyed one, gosh, it turned against me. I don't ever remember feeling like this other than Graduation Day at VS where I wept my eyes out while singing the school song.
But looking back, it really is the same. It's about the place and the people that make it. As much as this arrangement is till December, I just felt the loss hit me so hard that I couldn't bottle up the feelings anymore. The whole day was sunny and smiley and every second felt like I was on a holiday. Okay, maybe just that few minutes that my eyes hurt like mad when water got splashed directly into it. Ouch. I guess I missed out on taking a photo with Val, something that is unlikely to happen in the next 4 years... haiz.
If there's ever a need to find good reasons to stay put, I think I've found them already.
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
Yeah here I am, it's been a while since I really posted anything really. The days have been flying past, and the months have been moving along with it. This year's been pretty much a blur. The change of department, the posting out, the new environment, the studying, it's shock after shock, but my gyroscopes are holding up. Now the decision to take a break from the choir, one which I was pretty sure would be a right decision and a sacrifice for this time period. It's come under close scrutiny, and as much as I agree with the views of others around me, I guess I just gotta trust myself on this. I should just make the best outta this huh?
It's going to suck later tonight and definitely tomorrow night. I wouldn't go as far as comparing it to ripping my soul out of my body, but maybe a rung or two below that. Come December, I'm sure it's going to be a very different choir from the one I'm taking a step back from now, but I guess that's just the wheels of change going about their very job. Somehow, looking back, the last hiatus I took actually did me some good, but I'm not as optimistic about this one. I'll surely miss the weekly singing, my queer animating and needless to say, the people who make the choir. Tough yes, but pray that it'll be a worthy move and that it'll pay come next year.
I need to reclaim what I've long lost, it's rightfully mine...
Saturdays are going to be miserable from now till December...
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Sunday, May 31, 2009
Remember yesterday, walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand, I remember you.
Here's one last one...
...here's to five
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
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Sunday, May 10, 2009
Cycling all the way from Pasir Ris, through Tampines, through Simei, through Upper East Coast, through East Coast Park all the way to the area after Big Splash was insane.
Halfway on the journey back, I died and dialled an emergency number. My dad's handphone number, and yup, rescue arrived in the form of my dad and the Stream.
Hallelujah.
I'm not trying the stunt again anytime soon.
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Saturday, May 09, 2009
I'm tired, really. I've never felt this burnt out in life. The travelling, the glass prison, the trip back, the mad rush for public transport, the constant staring at text and equations. It's taking its toll. I'm having insane headaches every night, and to cramp information through that pain barrier takes more effort than anything else.
Pictionary with Bryan, Pris, Darryl and Daf at night was a welcome relief. A glorious way to end the week and just await the weekend. Drawing egg-like flowers and suns for me, while the rest have to simply scribble stuff and we solve the words. Haha, it was really fun and I actually want to play it again some time soon. Heh. Supper at Simpang, followed by Daf's lift back. I just feel bad everytime someone from the choir gives me a lift home from the East Coast. I just can't help but feel that I'm just giving them the extra hassle to drive 10km just to send me home, and then make the 10km journey back to their homes again. It pretty much leaves me feeling sucky right after I get out of the car. Garh, I think if I don't manage to get the car next time I should just stay at home.
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
Ah here I am, milking the last few days of April, before another glorious month of 2009 arrives. Hmmmm, I shall stop myself before I go through that usually ORD-countdown-mantra. Oops, just did it.
Still at the wonderful western part of Singapore. Still stuck with the long journey. Still breathing in air which I'm pretty sure is full of pollutants, dust particles and whatnot. Still stuck.
Haha, yet despite all these, work for now is still pretty decent. Yes, it's a glass jail sitting behind that counter for hours and exchanging passes, but I guess the colleagues I work with make the job easier, or rather more bearable than it should be in the first place. The MP Specs and pretty nice, though there are times when they all get stressed up and they go mad. My work buddy, Jeremy is awesome, efficient and fun as well. I'm not gonna get started on the other 2 though. =X. My big boss is this fierce-strict-but funny Liverpool fan. So yeah, working life is tiring, stressful, painful but it could be worst, and it's not, and thus I'm not complaining. Not complaining much that is.
I amaze myself that despite how tired I am, I still want to make appointments with my various groups of friends and spend time with them till the wee hours of the weekends. A weekly getaway that keeps me sane from the hectic weekday schedules. My body would be screaming out in fatigue, but I'll keep myself out, come home and simply die in bed after my shower. Ahhh, for once in my life am I making some use of most of the time presented to me. Could be used for better purposes, but I'll work on that, right now, I'll just be contented I'm making use of time.
Here's to another week. Hello Tuas!
Now that sounded enthusiastic. NOT.
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Sunday, April 12, 2009
And so the Holy week ends. Looking back it seems like a very fast weekend despite it being a long weekend. The kick off was Lenten Vigil, which was naturally my main concern as I'm part of the organising comm. My god, I'm so pleasantly surprised that we pulled it off despite all our lacklustre practices that only pointed to one large impending disaster. Hallelujah! I mean, as always I had issues with the flautists, or rather, just one of them. Wendy is magical in every sense of the word, while the other was a tragedy. Oh well, I should be happy he offered to help us right? I'm such an ass. With all that said, I'm so happy for the help that I got from the entire comm along with Darren and Mel.
Good Friday is the day that I made my presence known to the entire church. Ha.
"Please remain standing.... yada yada". Good lord... looking back, it brings about a chuckle. Especially since Fr Iggy could still joke about it after the Easter Vigil mass. Ahhhh, my 30 seconds of infamy.
Swenson's was hilarious. Being with the choir is just a big comedy. The laughter, the complications, the miscommunications... despite all these it always ends with a laugh. My life would have been devoid of so much joy had I not met this special group of people!
Now, all that awaits is the long trip back to Tuas. Garh.
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Monday, April 06, 2009
Air Trooper.
Army Security Trooper.
Navy Security Trooper.
I've been part of all the services already! Wee, Tri-Service Warrior siaaaaaaaaaa.
This was a totally random thought that struck me on the long MRT ride.
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
And so the cliche goes, 'All good things come to an end'.
It did, I take the next step in this insane NS life. Why oh why am I posted to the godforsaken Tuas Naval Base. Why? Because somebody wanted it that way. Yes, congratulations. You win. All your games, just to defeat a Private soldier. But eventually, I guess it's the win that matters huh? Good on you, another show of your mighty power. Let this be goodbye.
So the 2 PDF days are past, the white uniform awaits, and once again my future hangs on the balance once more. Studying is going to be close to impossible, and thinking of this alone makes me stressed enough to the point of near death. Burning weekends means missing lessons, not as if I have already missed enough during the start of the year. Everything crumbles, and I'm stuck in this rubble. Seriously, I would have preferred to just get murdered or simply fall dead to the ground. It would have saved me alot of thinking and worrying.
I'm sick of this life. Screw the world...
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
"In a world where actions speak louder than words, here's an organisation where there's more words than actions"
-Charles, the armskote man referring to an unknown organisation.
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
Since I was young I've always had this premonition that I would die before my 20th birthday.
Somehow the idea of ageing that much never seemed possible to me.
Guess it was a hoax after all huh?
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
Manchester United 1
Liverpool 4
It would have been a sin if I did not start this post with that line after what the Reds did last night. Truly awesome. Despite being a Liverpool fan, I wasn't even confident that the Reds would beat United, let alone thrash them. But hey, it's another 360 on the roller coaster of supporting them. I mean, which team thrashes Real Madrid, Manchester United but have amazing draws with Stoke City and disgusting losses to Boro? If I ever die of a heart attack, it'll most probably be because of Liverpool. It was so exciting to keep on receiving SMS-es from Jo throughout choir practice with score updates la, though I'm feeling pretty bad cause I think she has to pay quite alot for it. Urgh.
Right now, if nothing screws up, I should see Pinky in a matter of 8 months? Yes, one glorious thought to hold on to and hope for. By then the Green Card which is now my limitless credit card to free medical appointments should be a pitiful shadow of its pink counterpart. I'm counting the months, days, hours, minutes, seconds.... actually no.
It's been raining these past few days. I can't recall the time when Singapore was this wet over such a short period of time. Even the ECP was pretty water clogged when I drove on it just now. Not funny I tell you, to feel as though someone has jammed on your brakes whenever you come in contact with a puddle. The mist left behind from the car infront is also sickening, especially when a car overtakes you and speeds up like some road runner. Impatient bugger.
20 soon. I can't believe I've lived for that long. I still stick by my pessimistic views when it comes to birthdays. Your problems mount along with the numbers. Not good, I never thought life could actually bring more problems, but come the new year, you realise that damn yeah, it could. Oh bother.
Ta-da, it's raining again now. No surprise.
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
I've moved on. I really have. But somehow I've this penchant for lingering in the used-to-be. For no apparent rhyme or reason. Or maybe I'm just a sucker for nostalgia.
Then again, I'm comfortable where I am now. It's simply me, myself and I. As much as I say that, I most probably can't live without my friends, but yet sometimes I wish I had more control of my own emotions rather than leaving it in the mercy of those around.
Contradictions, complications, yet I lack comprehension.
It'll be nice to sail away, start anew... away from 20 years of memories... then again, when the time comes, I don't think I can just drop everything and walk away. These chains are voluntary, yet they drag me down emotionally.
I'm going to get myself out, let's roll.
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Tuesday, February 24, 2009
It's been a while. Forgive me and curse my WLAN card instead. These past few weeks have been terrible with WLAN conveniently disconnecting once every 30 seconds, and then taking close to an entire minute to reconnect back to the network. Frustrating, sickening and definitely and bother. Can't believe all these happened right after I told my dear Fujitsu that it'll be making way for a Macbook once the new OS arrives. Sensitive bugger this one, gotta watch what I say around him already. Now if he finds out that he's gonna fly out of the window upon Mac's arrival...
ANYWAY, I'm getting more accustomed to life in the guardroom. The mix of people there is amazing. From a hardworking MP, to a slack one, from the noisy RPs to a relatively quieter Kelvin, it's been a blast spending days in camp with them. Studying is the new 'in' thing, and it's also the most depressing thing. Having to fry 6 hours every weekend for classes is painful considering its the precious times that I'm out of the army. But well, I kinda 'asked' for it in the first place, so yes, here's the bitter after-taste. Garh CHEM! It rhymes with damn.
I'm being random here and I'm pretty fine with it. It's liberating to just lie down on my bed and watch my fingers tap note by word and put down random thoughts into neat lines of black characters.
Waiting for Ka Fai outside MG today was pure bliss. Sitting in the bus stop and watching the VS boys play soccer past 7pm. The shouts, the celebrations, the disappointment of missing the goal, every gesture brought back a memory. Even the scene where Mr Sng walked onto the pitch and screamed at those wearing uniforms to stop playing. Needless to say, they continued playing once he left.
Heh. We never change do we?
Is it too early to say that I've lived enough of my life to die peacefully now?
(No, I'm not suicidal, but just a question that pops into my mind once in a while)
Truth be told, my answer now would be a 'Yes'. Let's see if that changes, if ever given the chance to that is.
Rest In Peace MAJ Azmi.
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Monday, February 09, 2009
The weeks come and go. Pleasant things drift past, and unpleasant things slowly tail them. It's amazing how life can never be perfect, or even, somewhat perfect. There'll always be that black dot amongst the perfection, and that in turn would lead to its imperfection. Why am I always looking for that one perfect life, when I know it'll never come. Hope, or simple foolishness? The stubborness to face reality maybe. Or I'll simply blame Disney for giving me hope that happy endings actually might exist.
Despite that paragraph, I daresay I'm pretty contented with life as it is now. Yet, dark clouds loom ahead and I can't stop to smell the flowers or admire the sun's golden rays that envelope me now. I can't help but sigh that today's blessings might become history tomorrow. The tyrant is waiting to wield his terror. Simple fact is that I have to stay calm and try to avert the disaster, but as always, it's easier said then done. I'm gonna have to do this carefully, one wrong step and everything's going to fall through.
Life now revolves around books, Catan, the choir and the dentist. Haha, yes the last one. It's been a painful and uncomfortable experience so far, but I guess I made the choice and I'm going to live with it for the next year. The only thing that bothers me is how I've been losing touch with other groups of friends other than the choir. The VS boys, Glen... just to name a few. I feel pretty bad, and I feel it's my fault for not managing my time well. I need to work my way around this, I don't want to sacrifice anything for something else!
I'm in a web of confusion.
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Saturday, January 31, 2009
Here's a quick, point form post to summarize my life.
1) Life in the guardroom is a definite improvement. It's a pity somebody isn't pleased.
2) I'm slowly starting to get sian of driving, I think I killed the joy by driving way too much in
a short period of time.
3) I'm hopelessly addicted to a game I'm hopeless in, namely, Catan.
4) Seeing the choir once a week feels weird, I'm so used to seeing them like thrice a week!
5) The VS boys have improved their shopping skills, I'm mighty proud of them.
6) Braces later, bless me.
7) CNY has been a blast. I've been eating too much, here's to a fat me.
8) Studying hasn't been that bad, but the pace is a disaster.
9) Liverpool is playing like CRAP now. C'mon CHELSEA IS COMING! Garh.
10)Bye.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
New job. Let's hope it'll last till November.
Pray that I've seen that last of that hell-hole.
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunday was awesome.
Despite it beginning at around 2pm, as I only got up at that time. A trip to the serene East Coast Park. Watching BJC blade with sunshine, the breeze and lots of laughter. Idly tossing the frisbee around, lots of amusing forfeits for letting it touch the ground, Noel's impromptu Ultimate frisbee lesson. The night was rounded up with a steamboat dinner and a nice drive back with Mr Ning.
I live for the weekends.
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Friday, January 09, 2009
Back to the same god forsaken place.
This.is.bad.if.not.worst.
Timbre with the boys later, time to chill.
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